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althought i feel down 2day,bt there is sumtin lighting up my day that makes me grinning all day long :D . . . . n i cant tell u!! :p ..

it is being a week now since i came back from saudi,i went to singapore on the 3rd day,stay thier for 4 days,n come back 2 m'sia again...
such a nice country it is,n i hope ill be able 2 visit it again n again...
the vecation had oredy started last week,n im nw alone in uia :(
bt i nd this loneliness,i feel i nd 2 stay low..jz for the mean time...

well,ill be SOOO busy in this up coming 2days ;p i hope ill b alright..*ahakz*
pray for me all,dat those who doesnt understand me,well do so...
chawwoo

y cant sum people jz say dat they r wrong? dunt they know dat confesion is a sumitn nice!?
keep blaming others n not noticing there own mistake!!! BULLSHIT!!! i really had enough of this game... .. .
bt i jz cant end it.
something tells me that i have 2 b in ur side,i cant lose u..i jz cant..
althought it hurts so hard,bt i can still take more.. i can.

all i hope is that things well get much more better..coz if it didnt,things really wont be the same good s b4..

12th of April
I woke up @ 5am 2day,n prayed subuh then I watched my siblings s they were rushing to dress up to go to their duties…so I was alone in the house, only wif my mom whom were so busy doing house work, n cz I hv such situation, I use my magical spill!! N use the net!!! hahaha :D
Well, I miss so many people there in UIA, n I noe dat most of them r msn addicted :p so I figure out the best way to contact them is by the net…
Frm dis day, Im used to open the net at morning tym here,which is after zuhur there….so my lovely frends,whom ever want to contact me or miss me so much :p ill b available @ dat period of tym!!( suka hati ko la!!!) hahahaa
B4 da nyt fall, my sister had oredy thought of a program for the two of us,she wanna shop in mall tonight s im here nw…(yeah great *sigh*,window shopping wif gals is da worst thing ever for boys :p hahaha !! joking!!!!)
We went to the suq al_hijaz, well she did her stuff of walking arnd,asking here n there,checking da prices…arrrrggghh I jz can't understand gals… wat make me come wif her to this place was only bcoz we plan to spend most of our tym in the Maktabah!! my lovely book store…hehehe.. things have changed,there were new items all over the store, n new book all over da place, I went searching n seaching…n suddenly I stopped!... sumtin caught my eyes!! It was the newest Harry potter's book!! It's even translated to Arabic! I was almost abt to scream!!(tk da la sgt :p) I wanted dat book very much since I saw it in Malaysia laz year I guess. N it was arnd 99RM @ dat tym,soooo expensive. Bt do u noe how much this translated one is?! It's only 28RM *woow* I was fighting wif my sister to whom shld buy it,then n s it was expected frm such a generous person lyk me, I bought it!!(cehhhhhhhhhh) hehehehehe
Well my day end @ dat point…OIT!! Of cors I went back home n sleep,do u think I was left in the mall or sumtin…(nk gaduh2 je) :p

Later….bubbye!!

11th of April
I woke up at 6.?? , to c the whole house in action, my lil sis is wondering frm room 2 room 2 dress, my lil bro is eating his breakfast very fast, my two big brothers r discussing their small project b4 they go to their job…n abt me, I was preparing myself to go to a place billions of people r willing 2 pay thousands for visiting it…im going to alHaram!!!
My father left me there n said dat he'll come back after 2 hrs, I enter alharm n was walking to slowly s my heart beat so fast , thanking allah that I was able to c this place a again…
I went to the Ka'bah n perform tawaf,then I went to assafa wa almarwah n perform alsa'ei….n that’s it!! I did umrah!! After that I took a place infront of the holy ka'abah n start praying for all muslimin n muslimat,for my parents,for my frends, n for all those who asked me to pray for them….
I kept staring at the ka'abah for so long till I realize dat I was late for my father,then I went out n meet him n back to my house to continue sleeping s I didn’t manage to get enough rest frm yesterday journey.
I woke up @ lunch tym, n it was da 1st home made food I didn't eat for almost 1 year…n s most of u guess wat is it….nasi ayam!!! Hehehehe bt in my moms way, I love u mama…(I sound lyk a gal saying lyk dat!! :S)
Then they gather arnd me s I continue telling my adventure in Malaysia!! hw I did dis n did dat..hw I manage to hold on until da laz min! <<<In the evening , I decided dat it's tym for me to do a short visit to my grandmother's house n also meet my two anti s they live there too. I went there n got the warm welcome s I was expecting, alhamdulillah every1 was ok n seem go.my granny looks a bit sick actually..urrrr..umm ,well she is mor dan to say a bit…bt im trying 2 ease myself here ok!!:( it's jz sad to say ur lovers in pain n suffering, n u can't do anything 2 cast dat pain away frm them…all I can do for my granny now,is to stay bside her, n pray dat allah will ease da lyf to her…..
Actually people,I want to talk abt me granny a bit here…u noe wat? I didn't noe dat she is a mother of my father till I get 4 or 5 years I guess,(stupied me ha)n let me add mor to my stupidity,I didn't noe dat my only uncil is my uncil till later age,I thought he is my father's close frend, n was all the tym wondering y does he came to our house a lot!!!!!!! Anyhw,at the age of 5 or 6,my grandmother,or lyk I use to call her"sitti", told me dat everytym I go n visit her,I'll get small amount of money..n wow I loved the idea so much(n who doesn't :D) , so da next day I went to her house, I went directly to her room n rudely ask for my money!! Hahahahaha n guess wat I got!!! A stronge slap frm my father s he was there wif me wen I said so!!! Hahahaha
Dat was da 1st day dat I begin to love my granny more n more s tym pass by……

Ohh allah, I pray dat my grandmother will become better, n no harm got to her…AMIN!!!

Later homie…got to hit the town!!!! :p

10th of April
I wake up 2day at 8.30am ,n pack up my things n dress up myself. My plan is at 3.30pm n I hv to b in the airport b4 2 .. pak cik murshid pick me up from uia matric n we hit the road to the airport arnd 11am. Every place I pass, every sight seen I c,I take a deep look s im nt going to enjoy such a thing in Saudi. . .
We reached the airport arnd 1 , I weight lugged n finish everything n half an hr , then my uncle want to leave coz he hv so many things to do s a lecture, so I excused him, n after a few min I was alone in the airport waiting for my plan… *sigh*
Hrs later I found myself sitting in my seat waiting for this MAS airplane to take off, s it did so, tears fall of my eyes s im going 2 leave Malaysia for the 2nd tym…
The journey was so tough, 8.30 hrs!!! n I stayed awake all dat tym! Thinking of uia n my frends there, how much I really miss them…
Alhamdulillah I reached Jeddah on tym, n I oredy change to Iharam wen we pass the miqat, n yes it was hard to move wif dat dress…:D
The 1st thing I encounter in the airport is …the aggressive way dat those *tooot* Saudi people welcome us…sheeesh anyhow, I didn’t expect sumtin gd I guess….
And to make things more worse, I received my lugged really late!! Actually,I was the last one to take his lugged…aarrrgggghhh
And wen they check my lugged, there was a problem!!! They needed to c wat inside my brief case !! so I opened it n showed them s I dun hv anything to hide, there were not many things inside actually: some gifts for my sisters, letters for my family, important documents, n a few cds n dvds.. the laz 2 items made some trubles s the officer insist 2 check it contains… ahhhhhhhh another a stupid unnecessary delay!!!
He send to a room , I met a man wif a pc n he ask me to hv a seat till he can finish his job….all this is gd n ok n I can accept it , bt the problem I notice n I cld close my eyes to is da…this man doesn't now dat much abt computer!!! He was asking me how to open this n how to open dat, n wat is this file(pada hal it's only word document files!!aahhhh) he was really annoying me wif stupid Qs, bt I was a gd man whom always hv a positive thinking s I keep telling to myself*he might b testing me psychologically* (yeah ryt..)…
Alhamdulillah I finish at last frm him, then I was on my way to meet my family….i came out to the crowd…scanning people's faces…n searching for any known one…n..there he they r!!! 1st one was my lil bro coming like a lion toward me n hugging …then I went to my perents n kissed their hands, them to the rest of my family,…then they took me wif my lugged n throw me in our car n off we go to our house!!! …the weird part is dat there were no tears wen I met my family!!it was almost one whole year since I last met them n I was expecting to break into tears the 1st thing I c them,bt I didn't....... . . how hard is my heart is!?…
All the way from Jeddah to makkah was laughing n fun s I try my best to tell anything important I did during my absence. Things arnt the same in makkah too,things change,people change(yeh,lyk if I nd to noe), situations change, bt no matter to which way it does so,gd or bad, we r opt to accept them..
I reached my house n had my late late dinner,which was BAKE!! A fast food restaurant that evry muallad miss,hahahaha…
I stay very late that nyt,I was listening to my big bro s he try to tell how is thing here..n we nearly finish talking arnd 4am… I hd 2 sleep so dat I can perform my umrah 2moro……"HOME SWEET HOME"!!!

I'm so happy today,there is so many reason to make me feel so, bt the best one to be mention here is that i'm going back to my home town 2moro..YEAH!!!! after almost 10 months far from home, i'm going back.
makkah..my believed place..i pray that i'll never be away from u...