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Hmmmm..

What should I write now??.. My feelings are fighting inside of me.. I don't really know what should I feel.. Dah la tk tido since yesterday.. And my eyes barely opens.

I just finished my 1st paper: Numerical Analysis.. I hate that subject a lot!! And I don't think I gain any benefit from it.. I just want to pass it..gerem she..

I think I did my best in the exam, and I'll accept whatever comes in the result Insha Allah..
I managed to pull myself togather yesterday, I read Qura'an, Doa and called my family again.. I tried to reach to her..but I guess she's not so that interested lately..never mind, work can be tiring sometimes..

I am beginning to like a certain song and group lately, I'll talk about the group later, but I'll post the lyric of the song in here..

nak blog..nak blog..NAK BLOOOOOG!!!

dh lama nk blog, tapi asik postpone-postpone..
this week, I felt really terrible .. And my heart is so closed and shut..I couldn't study or think straight. And also, something else comes up, and it add more pain to my mind….sheesh.. I can't really cope with all of this..

Thank God my family called from Makkah, though they doesn't call a lot , but this week they called, and I managed to take everything out of my chest and tell them my problems.. It really made me feel better when I do so.. I guess I needed someone to hear me out..

This sem is so hard for me, I even feel sometimes of doing study leave, but I can't afford that, I have to finish fast.. A lot of people expect me to do so..

You know, what is hurt the most, is that when you do something and try your best to do..still you doesn't succeed..and the hardest is that when you really know that even your best is not enough..
Haiz… God I really feel down now, I hope I can do my best in tomorrow's exam paper..my hardest subject this sem.. I don't even know if I can manage to pass it.. But unless I try my best, I never know..

Pray for me everyone~
Signing off : aSier A.K.A Usamah