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Hmmmm..

What should I write now??.. My feelings are fighting inside of me.. I don't really know what should I feel.. Dah la tk tido since yesterday.. And my eyes barely opens.

I just finished my 1st paper: Numerical Analysis.. I hate that subject a lot!! And I don't think I gain any benefit from it.. I just want to pass it..gerem she..

I think I did my best in the exam, and I'll accept whatever comes in the result Insha Allah..
I managed to pull myself togather yesterday, I read Qura'an, Doa and called my family again.. I tried to reach to her..but I guess she's not so that interested lately..never mind, work can be tiring sometimes..

I am beginning to like a certain song and group lately, I'll talk about the group later, but I'll post the lyric of the song in here..

nak blog..nak blog..NAK BLOOOOOG!!!

dh lama nk blog, tapi asik postpone-postpone..
this week, I felt really terrible .. And my heart is so closed and shut..I couldn't study or think straight. And also, something else comes up, and it add more pain to my mind….sheesh.. I can't really cope with all of this..

Thank God my family called from Makkah, though they doesn't call a lot , but this week they called, and I managed to take everything out of my chest and tell them my problems.. It really made me feel better when I do so.. I guess I needed someone to hear me out..

This sem is so hard for me, I even feel sometimes of doing study leave, but I can't afford that, I have to finish fast.. A lot of people expect me to do so..

You know, what is hurt the most, is that when you do something and try your best to do..still you doesn't succeed..and the hardest is that when you really know that even your best is not enough..
Haiz… God I really feel down now, I hope I can do my best in tomorrow's exam paper..my hardest subject this sem.. I don't even know if I can manage to pass it.. But unless I try my best, I never know..

Pray for me everyone~
Signing off : aSier A.K.A Usamah

althought i feel down 2day,bt there is sumtin lighting up my day that makes me grinning all day long :D . . . . n i cant tell u!! :p ..

it is being a week now since i came back from saudi,i went to singapore on the 3rd day,stay thier for 4 days,n come back 2 m'sia again...
such a nice country it is,n i hope ill be able 2 visit it again n again...
the vecation had oredy started last week,n im nw alone in uia :(
bt i nd this loneliness,i feel i nd 2 stay low..jz for the mean time...

well,ill be SOOO busy in this up coming 2days ;p i hope ill b alright..*ahakz*
pray for me all,dat those who doesnt understand me,well do so...
chawwoo

y cant sum people jz say dat they r wrong? dunt they know dat confesion is a sumitn nice!?
keep blaming others n not noticing there own mistake!!! BULLSHIT!!! i really had enough of this game... .. .
bt i jz cant end it.
something tells me that i have 2 b in ur side,i cant lose u..i jz cant..
althought it hurts so hard,bt i can still take more.. i can.

all i hope is that things well get much more better..coz if it didnt,things really wont be the same good s b4..

I'm so happy today,there is so many reason to make me feel so, bt the best one to be mention here is that i'm going back to my home town 2moro..YEAH!!!! after almost 10 months far from home, i'm going back.
makkah..my believed place..i pray that i'll never be away from u...

My heart beat so strong n fast.. i don't lyk this signal,everytime this thing happend, a bad thing will occure.. i pray 2 allah dat it would stop doing so..
i skipped 2 of my classes 2day, i feel so tired n blur,no point frm going 2 lectures in this mood. . . things are nt quite well arnd me lately, i tend 2 waste my tym thinking of my problem, lyf must goes on, we don't usually hv to look so long at wat we hv lost... dat's wat my mind is thinking...

I really can't take anymore,i feel lyk i'm going to explode in any min. no matter how hard i tried,things turn out to be bad.. i tried my best in my studies, but yet the marks is not that satisfying.. i tried 2 maintain my badget, but yet i end up bankrube every month... i tried 2 be very kind, but yet some people are nt satisfied..maybe it's bcz they doesn't know the dark side of me, that y they say"wen were u nice?"... some people wen u do a singal mistake,they will 4get all ur gd deeds... i think if i get pushed jz a lil bit,da lion within me will b unleashed!! i dun think any1 want 2 see me at dat tym, neither I!!
i asked a frend:"y do people get hurts?", he replied:" bcz sometimes they expect more than they desearve!"...

i'm so down nw,i feel sooooo stupied n hopeless... i hurted someone so deeply,regardless if it's on purpose or nt .. i did it ...
though, dat one is very importent 2 me, tought me alot of things n ideas, help me 2 over come many diffeculities, share my joys n pleasures, stand wit me infront my pains...nw i lost everything..
i feel like i'm evil n mean..so rude n thankfulless..in dat person's eye.
all wat come frm da heart,goes directly 2 da heart..it was so painful...
i did something wrong,i confess ..bt listening 2 one side its really nt fair.. nt fair at all...

i promise myslef 2 keep my reason inside, it's enough dat i hurt sum1 b4 bcz of it..n i decided 2 suffer alone wen it happend..again.
All wat i can say is dat "silence suffering" is far too hard 4 me to handle, bt i won't let it go ..until i reach my limit!

gee...!! the uni opens again,n we r encounter wit so many projects n assignments.. SO BORING!!
we r one week away from the mid-term exams,n i hvn't got a gd hold of my subjects yet.. Bu****t!!! not mentioning all de other problem dat pop up frm no wer, NOW I'M REALLY FRUSTRATED.. :(